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Post by Ruin on Aug 13, 2011 20:10:35 GMT -5
He’d been ready to throw himself back to work; the Dining Hall still needed clearing, bodies would still need cleaned and counted; he was still needed, but Delilah would have none of it—not this time. On his way back toward the Healer’s camp, after delivering G’dan from the smoke-filled infirmary, the Pinkrider accosted him and, with the help of Agnith, could not be dissuaded. Helping the Weyr would have to wait until she had seen to him; he had a secret that must be kept hidden—not just anyone could see to him, and they would both be busy long into the night. Now was the best time—the only time—and when he saw the logic in that he conceded.
Gathering the supplies had not taken long, and Agnith had long since grown used to the Healer’s bags she was taught to carry into emergencies; not that the Pink knew what it was to be repugnant. Where to do it was the question; where would they not be seen, or interrupted, or discovered? It only took a moment for them both to mutually decide the place, and a look to tell the other had thought the same—mustering a wry smile he didn’t know was in him, Sebol nodded his assent. In the very least Agnith could not get herself stuck now; not with how large she was. Pulling the tapestry that covered his shoulders closer around his body with one large hand—sea-grey eyes contemplating the intricate stitchwork as it lay close by his cheek—he guarded himself away from the distantly fading sounds of destruction.
The walk there was quiet, wearied, marred only by the spats of angry coughs that wracked his scorched lungs and brought a new fire to the aching muscles of his chest; he was so tired, and his mind was a mess of gloomy smoke-filled thoughts. In his head the screams of those dying still rang in his ears, and the smell of melting human flesh and hair still clung to his nose much like the acrid taste of burning in his throat. It was a miserable feeling, and it drowned out most of the real pain from his injuries: Likely he would have worked himself past the point exhaustion and fallen where he stood only to be found by a Healer who did not know his secret was to be kept.
Grateful for the Pinkrider he tried to muster a smile, but it failed him, his heart was too weary to beat an emotion, and he was too weary to feel one that was false. As the trio drew further away from eyes that could pry and judge, the resolve of his firm emotional hold faltered and fell—he was simply too tired. When they came to the bend in the Weyrwall that marked their departure from the Weyr proper he turned, allowing the Pinkpair to go before him as his eyes returned to the slowly waning column of black smoke as it coiled up into the dusty sky. Kalith’s giant form stood out against the darkness of that view, and her keening reached into his heart and broke a cable he had not been aware was there—so his Weyrwoman now knew.
He stumbled away from that scene, there was nothing left for him to do for her, he had done his part in delivering the corpse of her child so he could be sent between with honor, he fell in step again behind the two who had paused to ensure he would continue on. He did, passing them and reaching the sanctuary of that jagged wound in the Weyr which was a physical manifestation of the day’s turmoil. Inside, once swallowed by the deepest shadows, he could not even find the energy to sit, instead he sorted through his soiled emotions—barely recognizing when Sigard joined him and settled at his feet, one blue foreclaw on his bonded’s fire-scared boot.
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Post by Cathaline on Aug 14, 2011 17:48:31 GMT -5
As soon as Delilah realized that Sebol was playing the hero, she knew that, despite how badly her skills were needed at the temporary infirmary, she was going to have to get away. No one else could tend him without the tattoo secret coming out. Therefore, as soon as she got a minute when she had no orders, she ran toward the danger to haul Sebol out of it and away.
He would have continued dragging bodies - mostly dead now - out until the smoke choked his lungs and turned him into one of the charred corpses, she thought. That knowledge brought her both warmth and terror - it was always good to have a reminder of what a good person she'd befriended, yet there had already been so much loss today. Who knew if him plunging back into the fire just one more time would mean his end?
Apart from sharp, persuasive words, she was nearly silent as they hurried across the bowl, nearly unnoticed - everyone was at work, or watching the fire. Delilah felt guilty about not working, even though she was healing; she hated the shame of focusing in on one person when so many needed help, and even her small pair of hands could mean the difference between life and death. Sebol was not dying, at least not noticeably. Yet discovery would ruin him, and she couldn't stand that either.
Already tormented, she made a pained, choking sound at Kalith's raw cry. Though she didn't know yet of Osro's death, it was different from the keening that Agnith echoed, for dead dragons and dead riders; it shattered the night and her calm, and by the time they slipped into the crevice, tears streamed from her eyes. Tears that burned, given the smoke that had clouded even her vision at times during the nightmarish evening. She quickly unpacked supplies from Agnith, leaving the dragonet outside to guard and protect, and slipped over to his side. The remnants of his shirt had to come off, and peeling fabric from burns would be agony for him; she had a concoction to hopefully ease the burn in his lungs.
He didn't sit, and she didn't make him, yet; instead she hung a glowbasket so she could see properly, and examined him, trying to figure out where to even begin.
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Post by Ruin on Aug 14, 2011 18:56:25 GMT -5
What he really wanted was for her to return to where she was needed, where they both were needed, but arguing with her would only draw out what could be a swift exercise—then they could both return: That, and she was doing it for him, specifically, to keep the secret she had never had any intention of learning. Grateful for her friendship, and yet guilty for it, he dropped the tapestry from his shoulders, flicking it to the side heedless of the protest from his seared hands. Not wanting to keep her longer than necessary, and knowing she would need access to his wounds, he gathered his resolve and simply stripped away the tunic as if tearing a bandage from flesh—one quick movement. Luckily, many of his wounds had not clung to his tunic; he lost less flesh than expected.
Heart rate slowing, and a numbness overcoming him as he slipped into a wearied state where his lungs could hardly find the freshest air to breathe life into him, he simply allowed her eyes to see the obvious wounds. The tightness and angry pain across his back felt as if he’d lain on three metal railings, and he could feel the blood mixing with sweat as it swirled down absently toward the ground—that, he assumed, would be the worst of the damage. There was nothing to be done for his hands, either, save to bandage them completely from fingers to elbow; he held them out for her inspection and sighed softly. ”They should heal quickly, I hope, if you can bandage them enough to protect them, but so I can also use them—to work.”
She, out of anyone, would understand his resolve for what it was—he did not doubt she would spend the next day or two at the camp working until her fingers bled, acquiring the distinct tint of redwort into her hands, and he—he would be lifting, and dragging, and moving the dead and destroyed. All must do as they could to continue on through this pain, yes? In the Bowl, far beyond the outer edge of their quiet piece of Weyrwall, Kalith had settled, but he still felt that pain deeply—all of it. Delilah would feel it worse. ”Is there anyone,” faltering over the words his jaw tightened to control the ripple of worry that passed through his weary fire-seared voice. ”Were any that we know intimately brought out dead?”
Part of him hated the qualification—intimate—as if any loss of life was acceptable, or less potent, but now that Delilah was here—away and safe—he found himself worrying for those he knew who were still out working. Names and faces flashed through his mind paired with questions and worries, even Sigard echoed the anxiety, but refused to leave his bonded: Instead the firelizard twined himself more tightly against that booted leg and keened his own sorrowful song much in the way of Herders—the haunting melody filling the cavern as it echoed the inward pain of the man to whom he looked.
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Post by Cathaline on Aug 14, 2011 19:12:28 GMT -5
The shirt was ruined anyway, there was no way to save it; it likely would have been better for him to let her cut it away, soak off the bits that clung to skin just as wrecked. She frowned at the pain and damage he caused himself, but in the end, it would get them out of here faster. She was too anxious and exhausted even to give him her usual lecture.
Delilah circled him like a Herder examining a runner, her mind whirling through the calculations. What needed to be sutured and what simply needed bandaging, where to slather the numbweed, what might scar. What to do first. At last, she quietly said, "Sit," and fetched out her canteen. Cool water first, then she would do all that she could for him, and hope it would be enough. If he never got full feeling back in the nerves in his hands...well, that was a bridge they'd cross when they came to it.
The song of death in her bones made her voice wooden when she said, "I don't believe so, but I did not see many of the dead, and most were charred beyond recognition. I saw most of - most of the people we know - alive, I think." Her fellow healers, of course. Xiro'el. Other weyrlings.
First she handed the canteen to him, though. "Drink, and tell me if you feel cold. Destroyed skin can cause hypothermia." Funny, in a horrifying way; all the lessons at Healer Hall, lessons she had partially imparted to G'dan, now useful for the first time. Horribly useful.
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Post by Ruin on Aug 17, 2011 23:57:08 GMT -5
At her command he sank to his knees as if a tree felled with a great axe, and there he remained; head bowed and awaiting her ministrations. He was numb—not as she would worry, or expect, but inwardly there was a calm in his soul that would amaze him in later days. He simply waited: She would do her duty, and then he would do his. Under his own power he would return to that distant stench-filled waste of burned wood, twisted metal, and melted bodies. He would stay until it was finished, without sleep, without food, and he would barely recognize when the ordeal was over. It was how he coped in those first few days. It was how he got through one hour to the next. Then, kneeling there in the crevice, he could not see the scope of his actions, but long after the numb had faded to a distant pain he would.
Large fingers closed over the canteen that was offered, the roughness felt like sizzling against his seared flesh, but instead of putting it to his lips he placed it beneath his nose seeking any hint of herb or plant that was not water or wine. ”No fellis, correct?” Realistically she should not be of rank to handle the plant that would dull him and render him useless, but he could not trust that the Healers had not passed it out as if numbweed or bandages in this time of need. It was not, and they had not, a small grace. If he had been a different man he would have been forced under its effects, but his brand had saved him from uselessness. Instead of a stay in the infirmary he would instead be able to hide the severity of his wounds beneath tunics like he hid the inky black that dwelt within the flesh.
With a quiet curiosity he wondered if the red-hot metal that had marred his back had rendered some of those markings out of existence—it wouldn’t matter of course, but it would be a curious fact if fire had burned even an inch away: Redeemed that one small segment by his duty. Grunting an agreement to her words—he would tell her—Sebol finally lifted the canteen to his fire-chapped lips and choked down a swallow past his ruined throat: The liquid burned its way down much like the smoke that had filled his lungs previously, and it was a terrible pain that doubled him with fierce coughing. He would never feel cold again.
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Post by Cathaline on Aug 18, 2011 0:29:15 GMT -5
Delilah knew better than to think that she could convince him to rest; she would not, except in snatched moments in rare empty beds in their makeshift infirmary. Not for the first time, she realised how different she was from the majority of her fellow weyrlings. Apart from those like Xiro'el who could not be kept away, they had been sheltered from the worst of the disaster by their dragonets' youth. In all likelihood they would be put on emergency chores to help rebuild; the Weyr would need a temporary kitchen, and had lost many cooks. With winter coming, they could not linger about restoring the old one to use. But they would still be weyrlings; they would duck away to oil their dragons, to rest. Delilah already knew that as a healer, she could not. The grieving, suffering weyrbrats would likely welcome the chance to help with the friendly pink Agnith's care, while Delilah worked herself to the bone until and unless the Masters came to take her away.
And it would be like this forever. After they flew Thread, the others would seek their beds, or the comfort of another's arms, or find refuge in food or song. Not Delilah; her place would be in the infirmary, after she rode her dragon against the menace. Two jobs in one. And someday she might be like crippled Tedaon, dragonless, but unable to escape the pain of existence without Agnith, not as long as she was needed.
She was needed now. No one else could be trusted with the secret, with the dark spirals of ink, not as sharp today against the burns and soot. "No," she said. "I don't have access to fellis." Even if she would have given it to him, she couldn't, and though he didn't want it, she still felt helpless at that realization. Her fingers rested, light, against the back of his neck while he choked, and then she offered him a small pot. "For your throat. Eat it slowly." The slimy goo within would not work miracles, but at least it would soothe him, if not heal him.
Retrieving the canteen, she dampened a cloth and began the painstaking work on his back - cooling the burns, wiping away ash that could infect the wounds, doing her best not to injure him. Numbweed, unfortunately, would only prevent her from seeing what was wrong, especially in their dimly-lit hole in the wall, but soon he could have all that he wanted of the stuff. Agnith's keening gave her a terrible headache, and finally she all but snapped, "Agnith, he's going to need new clothes. Please."
The pink could feel her emotions, of course, and didn't take the tone as someone only hearing it aloud might have; she went off running, and in a weak attempt to make him laugh, Delilah murmured, "She's going to scare Daymar."
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Post by Ruin on Aug 18, 2011 0:53:23 GMT -5
He accepted the pot into his sensitive fingers as well and gazed at it with weary but cautious eyes. Whatever it was, it did not smell of anything that would ruin him and somewhere—he knew—she would see the need for his body to still work under his commands. There was no great threat in him working to exhaustion, there was no dragon for him to see after or worry he was destroying with the lifelessness he felt inside. Sebolaren was simply the Candidate, the ex-Herder, the man who could lift, and pull, and dig, and strive to fix. There was no reason for her to drug him into a stupor. If any of his friends would understand his motivation it would be her—she would have as much free time as he did, dragon or no.
It tasted disgusting, not that he had expected otherwise; he spooned it into his mouth on fingers that had not been badly flame-kissed, but the caution was unnecessary. Though the mess proved to sting slightly on contact, it soon brought a chill to even his fingers that was pleasant—in his throat he could feel the vapors as if torn flesh had turned to sweet spring. It was amazing. Swallowing for what felt like the first time since the word ‘fire’ had been screamed into the kitchen, he reveled in that which he had taken for granted—the simple closing of his throat without the pained scrape of tortured flesh on flesh.
Even the work on his back was barely comparable to the pain of the wounds themselves, only the barest ripples crossed his muscled back in reaction to her swipes of damp fabric, and they were like shivers on a chill night. It could have been so much worse, and she would certainly see worse before the night was over—many of her patients would scream as she worked clothes from their charred flesh. Then there would be blood, and infection, and the smell of Southern nuts—then talk would turn to mercy or amputation. Sebol did not envy her the days ahead, even when she would be more likely to feed and nap than he.
The dead could not cry out their pain to him, the destroyed wood held only distant memories, even wounded runners could not beg for their mothers as their time drew closer. No. That was not a work he wanted to bear—not now, not ever. The smile he tried to muster at her words failed before it was even a promise on his face and while he agreed with what she had said—Daymar would likely have a fit and then wonder if he had died—what he spoke was vastly different. ”I pulled the Weyrwoman’s son out of the kitchen.” It was a burden he could not carry quietly, perhaps it was selfish to speak the words, but he still saw that crop of light-kissed hair and it was a stone against his heart.
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Post by Cathaline on Aug 18, 2011 1:27:04 GMT -5
The only blessing Delilah found in the whole situation was that he was used to sutures by now, and that fortunately the bleeding soon began to slow. The cleansing itself took time, and he would almost certainly bear ugly scars, but only on a part of his body he could not show off anyway.
All things considered, he would probably be one of her easier patients; he was not dying, and he could take the pain. She almost wished he would cry or curse or rage, because it would free her to do the same; anything but the blankness that had crept over them both, suffocating. But at least she reached into the supplies they'd brought for the pot of numbweed and her thin gloves; she would have to cover practically his whole back, and she couldn't even conceive of how that would feel, especially once his hands joined it in tingly nothingness. At least it would help with the pain when she stitched his wounds together.
Her breath caught in her throat at those words, and she remembered Kalith's tearing cries - apparently not only for dragons who had fled this world at the loss of their riders. Or did they know yet? Was that a grief that would cut to the core of the already-aching Weyrwoman? In all likelihood, Delilah would never have children, but her thoughts flew to her own father. He had turned to a regular Daymar after the loss of her mother; everyone said he'd been different, before. If Delilah had been in the wrong place today - if Thread took her...
The tears shook her thin frame, but she didn't cease her work, even though her eyesight was now blurred. She could have applied numbweed in pitch blackness, after all. "Drink some water," she commanded thickly. Didn't want him to get dehydrated. There was so much work to do, and more would die in front of her eyes before the long night was out. To say nothing of the days to come.
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Post by Ruin on Aug 18, 2011 2:39:20 GMT -5
Sebolaren did as he was commanded, lifting the cool fluid to his lips again; this time it did not cause him to hack or retch against its touch on his throat. Sigard crooned up at him piteously, and then Avsiran was there—both sets of faceted eyes were messes of orange and yellow that only reminded him of the licking flames. Comforting them as he could, they were able to settle between his knees in a pile of warm smooth dragon parts that rumbled and crooned and warbled songs to him. It made him wonder where Xiro’el was, but Avsiran did not act as if his bonded had passed away. Nothing to be done for it now, not while Delilah took time away from her Weyr to tend to him inside the stone walls—soon, however. There would be time.
To mourn. To bury the dead. To cope. Not now. He sighed softly and cocked his head to the side so he could gaze back at Delilah—or try. Really he wasn’t able to catch sight of anything save for her fingertips sweeping past as she prepared his flesh for what he could only assume would be the sutures he had known would be necessary: Blood was unnatural for burns. ”You are an amazing woman, Delilah, and a Dragonrider—you will get through this. Through all of it.” She didn’t need his words, and yet perhaps they both did. The silence, for once, unnerved him—he felt as if he could hear the screams of the dying sweeping past the entrance to their hidden sanctuary.
Such as it was. Still, she had Agnith; undoubtedly she would fare better than he. Although, there was always Daymar to worry about: Daymar who would see past his charades and did not have a dragon to distract him. He had not seen Daymar there—did not think he would be there, and Delilah hadn’t seen him either. Hopefully the man was safe—wherever he was.
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Post by Cathaline on Aug 18, 2011 2:56:47 GMT -5
Delilah did not need his praise, or anyone else's; it was enough to know that she was doing the right thing, taking the right course of action. Causing no harm. There was no one here to guide her hands, but they were steady despite her misery, and his words did help, in a way. She needed no one to validate her skills or her personhood, but to know that one of her dearest friends, despite the occasional waspish comment, did appreciate her - it helped.
For a moment, she rested her forehead against the back of his neck, taking soft breaths. He smelled of sweat and blood and flames, and her stomach twisted, but it took a moment before she could pull away. The numbweed successfully slathered on, she stripped the soiled gloves off and took out the stitching equipment.
"You're going to need to check in with me daily," she told him, as she threaded the thick needle. "We will have to simply wait and hope. Infection would be disastrous, but fire is a great cleansing tool, and I got to the wounds quickly. I expect you to monitor your own reactions and come to me immediately at any sign of unexplained aches, fever, dehydration, or similar." Her words covered the first thrust of needle into flesh, and soon she was humming along, rapidly pulling his torn skin together.
Which was, of course, what Daymar walked in on. Ran in on, rather, his arms full of clothes - which he dropped when he almost fainted, staggering dizzily against a wall. "Oh shards what are you doing!"
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Post by Ruin on Aug 18, 2011 3:16:20 GMT -5
While she rested against him he remained still, giving her what time she needed—what little time she had—to simply be, and exist: The coming days would be a nightmare for the both of them. The litany of her words did not drown out the pain of that first needle-thrust, and the movement actually drew a hiss of breath from between his teeth—not from pain, there was none, but from the noise it made against the crackled flesh that bordered the lacerations. His worst wound indeed. As she spoke on he realized just how bad they must be—it was her expectation that they would become infected.
Hopefully they would not; of all the things he could weather infection was not one: Not because he was weak, or worried, but because of the Hatching everyone assumed would fall during Winter. He could not—would not—miss a chance to Stand. Not when he was so close to achieving the community—the purpose—that he wanted. Luckily, no one had to know, but if his wounds festered…well. They wouldn’t. There was no other option. He would bathe in the ocean and change his shirt on every hour if that is what it would take. Perhaps he would even return to the fire and press his back against smoldering ruins to cauterize the lacerations.
Of course he wouldn’t ruin Delilah’s work like that, but it was something he should have considered while at the fire—not that he had known his back had been cut to bleed. Unfortunate; as was his startled jump at Daymar’s sudden appearance—completely unexpected: He winced and gave another drawn out hiss as his movement caused Delilah’s needle to dig deeper than the numbweed had touched.
Twisting his head around he offered up what he hoped would be an encouraging smile to his room-mate. ”Thank you for bringing clothing, Daymar. She’s tending to my wounds; I can’t be seen by any other Healer.”
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Post by Cathaline on Aug 18, 2011 3:32:48 GMT -5
If there was anything at all Delilah could to to ensure he stood, she would see to it. If she had to leave her duties to tend him in secret, it might lower the other healers' estimation of her - but she would, for him. It seemed like a long time ago she'd chatted to G'dan about cauterization, but it crossed her mind now; she might indeed need to fetch a bar of metal, heat it, press it against him to stem the tide of infection. The thought made her sick, but if it was necessary...
She hissed at Daymar's intrusion, and snatched the needle back, giving Sebol a moment to recover from the unexpected pain. "Sit down and put your head between your legs," she said, though not unkindly. "I cannot spare a moment to care for you, too."
Daymar obeyed, but only because he was about to fall down anyway. Of course he'd heard the explosion, the faint screams, from the barracks; he'd seen smoke billowing from the caverns. But he hadn't dared to go, and this was his first experience of the wreckage left behind, in the form of his roommate and best friend. "Why not?" he demanded of Sebol, even though the tattoos were on display, even though he almost never saw them because of his aversion to bare flesh; he didn't see them now, because he couldn't tear his eyes from the horrible marred skin and the flicker of needle pressing through burnt skin.
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Post by Ruin on Aug 18, 2011 4:11:32 GMT -5
”Because the last thing I, or frankly anyone, wants to deal with currently are the marks on my back. If they were discovered at this moment it’s entirely possible the fire would be blamed on me simply because they brand me as bad.” The thought had honestly not occurred to him until he had to speak the words to Daymar, and with an inner chill he realized how true they were. Sebol would be blamed, or at least be under intense scrutiny—people going through trauma did not like change or new things; he would become new. He would be bad. This formed a crack in his inner calm that would take the better part of a night to mend, but he weathered the distraction well—mostly by distracting himself with pressing matters such as tending to the Weyr.
Question answered, and with more brutal truth than he had expected, his eyes returned dispassionately to the back of the crevice before they cast downward at the firelizards still twined between his legs. Hopefully Daymar wouldn’t bother them; they deserved a break more than most—he still had the vivid image of Sigard appearing above his head in the maelstrom: Both of them must have been terrified. For all intents and purposes they were napping now, minding their own business—for once Sebol wanted to believe Daymar would do the same. Unlikely, but miracles were possible.
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Post by Cathaline on Aug 18, 2011 4:35:20 GMT -5
Delilah frowned, only now realizing, as he did, that it was true. The grieving and paranoid could easily twist everything he'd done tonight, see his heroism as regret. The tattoos marked him outcast, dangerous, other; who else would they blame? Blame for the Weyrwoman's son, she thought with a jolt. Not just a devastating disaster, not just precious dragons lost with their riders, but a good reason for the leaders of the entire Weyr to be out for blood. Someone had lost those buckets, even if the fire itself was an accident from start to finish. Someone had to pay.
It wouldn't be Sebol, and she continued her work in silence as Daymar blinked. "Oh," he said softly. "I forgot." Rather amazing, that someone like Daymar could care so little about the tattoos; even Delilah still focused on them. They bothered Daymar, so he chose to forget them. The firelizards, he hadn't even noticed yet, captivated as he was by the horrific violence that healing had turned out to entail.
"You're not bad," Daymar said at last, soft. "Not at all. What - what happened? How did...how?" He knew nothing, save that there was death on the wind tonight, in the crying of the dragons - the crying Agnith, once again stationed outside the crevice, was imparting to them all. That there had been fire and blood and terrible things, but why?
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Post by Ruin on Aug 18, 2011 5:07:58 GMT -5
The forgetfulness was not amazing to him; the man still refused to believe he had bonded to a firelizard even after months of evidence—Daymar would ignore anything in the face of the easiest answer. The reverse was probably equally true, so it was actually amazing that he’d managed to befriend the Candidate instead of immediately being taken as horrible (the easiest answer) in lieu of actually discovering who he was—ah well; another thing to be grateful for. Later. Sebol shifted gently on his knees to balance his weight from the shifting done when Daymar had appeared, careful not to jostle Delilah at her work, and then he settled in—answering the question as he could.
”A fire broke out in the kitchens, a grease fire built on several layers of unwashed stove-top. It spread through most of the racks and the wooden cutting counters. It spread out into the Hall by way of the service counters. There…I think— It didn’t really matter what he thought. The metal he had seen lodged into the twisted tables, in the walls, inside bodies. There hadn’t been anything like that in the Dining Hall previously, and he had his own assumptions from scraps he’d managed to pull free, but those were only speculation: Nothing to fill the minds of others with. ”We do know that the buckets were missing, though many people re-purposed cooking pans, pots, and even water troughs from the stables.”
Pausing momentarily to allow the vivid flashes of filed memories—his snapshots—filter across his mind, he gave a soft sigh and continued. ”At least four Dragonrider’s dead from the talk from the bivouacked Healers. Countless Weyrfolk dragonless weyrfolk dead. Countless injured. The Weyrwoman’s son among them. The smoke spread to the Infirmary.”
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Post by Cathaline on Aug 18, 2011 15:17:12 GMT -5
Delilah neatly tied off the first suture and moved on to the next gaping wound; none of it was anything she hadn't figured out herself from the gasps of the injured, yet it was different to hear it all laid out that way. Simple words, simple sentences, that conveyed nothing of the chaos and confusion of the actual event.
Daymar frowned, paranoia slowing seeping in and setting down roots that would never be budged. "Who hasn't been cleaning the stovetops?" he demanded. Unlikely someone had left that particular fire hazard be on purpose, but it could still be arson; there was no way to know, at this point in time. The missing buckets were definitely sabotage, however; there were loads of buckets everywhere in the Weyr, they were a staple of existence, and to suddenly come up missing at exactly the wrong time...oh, someone had planned this, and Daymar's expression darkened. He would find out who.
"What was that explosion?" he asked; normal fires popped and crackled, but they didn't explode. "And how did you get - all of - this?" He made a helpless gesture toward Sebol's back, and then fell silent. Those cruel marks were nothing in comparison to life torn away too soon, especially in the case of children - Osro wouldn't have been the only one in the kitchen, merely the most recognizable. And more would die as infection settled into their blood or coughing tore their lungs to pieces.
"Daymar," Delilah said softly. Sebol didn't need to relive it right now. Or ever. There would be no shortage of those eager to talk Daymar's head off about it, because that was how they would cope; Sebol seemed to prefer silence.
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Post by Ruin on Aug 18, 2011 17:19:58 GMT -5
”I do not know, though from the destruction in that part of the kitchen I assume they have expired. Many of the corpses in those depths had been reduced to charred bone and ash—save for the Weyrwoman’s son who had been protected by one of the cooks.” If he wanted his questions answered he would have them, but with none of the usual tact Sebolaren might have used for speaking to Daymar. The nervous man would hear far worse in the coming days—best to hear the facts from someone who had been there now; even if he was likely to ignore what he was told in favor of his most favourite rumor or saboteur plot.
”I am uncertain. I have guesses, and assumptions, and some small evidence, but until more of the area is cleaned—scraped—the bodies are washed and cleaned: Everything is speculation. You are correct, Daymar, fires do not explode.” As for how he received all of this, well; that was fairly simple. ”Carrying out the living, or in the case of the Weyrwoman’s son—the dead. The bolts on the pan rack in the kitchen must have melted and the entire mess of it fell onto me. They are the worst of my wounds.” The worst of those on flesh, anyway. Even he knew that the smells, the sounds—those would not be quickly forgotten.
The ex-Herder couldn’t help but smile at Delilah’s chiding words; ever his protector—even when it meant boxing him around the ears and giving him what-for. It was endearing, and though he would most likely tease her more than show honest appreciation—he did feel indebted to her beyond words. Perhaps one day he would be able to perform a similarly selfless service simply to help protect and hide her.
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Post by Cathaline on Aug 18, 2011 17:32:47 GMT -5
As fragile as Daymar often seemed - and really was, most of the time - it was almost nice not to be coddled. The Candidates would be pressed into service in the morning, if not sooner, and no doubt in addition to the tales that flew, he would be forced to view the destruction. Tonight, though he was edgy and distraught, he didn't break at Sebol's blunt words. "They'll want to take a census then," he murmured. To find out who those bodies were. To provide closure to the family and friends of the victims, and proper burial for the dead.
But something had exploded. They might piece it together someday, but Daymar wondered if the truth might end up deliberately hidden - held back by the Weyrleadership to assist in an investigation into the causes of this tragedy. He couldn't stand the thought of that conspiracy. He needed to know. Justice needed to be dealt out, swiftly and publicly, so they could sleep peacefully in their beds without fearing that the barracks would be next to burn. He shuddered at the news of how Sebol had received his injuries, and mumbled, "I'm glad you weren't killed too." Sebol was lucky he hadn't been killed.
At the moment, Delilah had nothing to protect or hide, and she was happy to provide the services she did for him - not just healing, but friendship and sympathy. He would suffer plenty in the coming sevendays - he didn't need to suffer now. Her words barely quelled Daymar, but he at least demanded no further details, watching with haunted eyes as she continued stitching up Sebol's back.
At last she finished, and told him, "Let me see your hands."
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Post by Ruin on Aug 18, 2011 17:46:46 GMT -5
”Aye. I removed quite a few bodies which were still identifiable when I realized that the living were clear—any who can claim theirs deserve the peace of mind: Deserve something more to send between than a pile of dust.” Privately he wondered if that would be how he died—taken by Thread and winking out of existence with nothing left to mourn. Or perhaps he would lose his dragon and be simply a broken shell of a man: Dead to the world for all intents and purposes yet still clinging to a tenuous connection of life. Better that—in some ways—than a family left to wonder if their loved one was chardust or simply missing. Perhaps the smoke had twisted down into the caverns and there were those who slept a slumber of acrid asphyxiation.
”Thank you, Daymar. I am lucky, but I needed to help those who were injured—or otherwise.” Some would not approve of his brazen act of heroism, some would understand—none would want to hear the words that he found himself more expendable than those who were bonded, or useful. He was just one of many Candidates, another in a long line, and he could give himself wholly until that time where he was bonded and called to something greater than himself. Then, and only then, would he place his life ahead of another.
When Delilah finished he turned on his knees, the firelizards mewling piteously at the movement and crawling onto his thighs to cling to him uncertainly—eyes swirling anxious yellows: They weren’t ready to let him go, but somewhere in the back of his mind he was disturbed that Avsiran was not with Xiro’el. Extending his seared palms to the Healer he offered her an encouraging smile—at least he had not lost his fingers. They would be sore, and sensitive, but nothing aloe and sevendays bandaged wouldn’t fix.
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Post by Cathaline on Aug 18, 2011 17:56:52 GMT -5
Better ashes than a body twisted, mangled, broken. Daymar would rather simply know that his loved one had been sent between or reduced to nothing but ash on the wind, than have to try to identify something that was now a mere object - a lump of flesh and cooled blood. He shuddered at the thought and asked anxiously, "Do we know where - where our people are? Is Reylia okay? Xiro'el?" Not that there was any love lost between the two of them, but Xiro's loss would hurt too many of the people Daymar loved to be acceptable, if any loss could honestly be deemed acceptable.
Sebol's certainly would not count as acceptable. He meant too much to too many people, and regardless of what he considered himself now - fatherless, Holdless - he was destined for great things. If he'd died today, and at the hatching a dragon betweened, maybe no one else would make the connection - but Daymar would know that that dragonet's perfect match had been lost. Candidates could be important too. No one was expendable.
The boy flinched back at the sight of the firelizards, though today he said nothing about them; Delilah examined his blistered hands and selected yet another jar, of cooling aloe. The acrid scent of burnt flesh was almost unnoticeable by now, and it was so much lesser than what she'd been in the middle of at the infirmary. As she worked, she murmured, "You're going to have to take it easy on your hands, or you will suffer permanent damage - you might even if you do nothing with them for a turn, these burns go deep."
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Post by Ruin on Aug 18, 2011 18:30:06 GMT -5
”Reylia was directing the water line and beating those too slow to get out of the way—out of the way. She is a wildcat in a crisis. Xiro’el—“ Sebol trailed off, his eyes on the dark Blue flit on his thigh before they cast upward to the flashes of pink hide outside the crevice opening that was Agnith. ”We would know. He was pulling wounded from the fire when I last saw him. We would know.”
The repetition was firm, but tinged with a faint uncertainty as if even he did not believe it—why was Avsiran with him and not his bonded? It was disturbing, and if he hadn’t been possessed of that unexplainable inner calm he might have charged off to find out for himself. ”I believe we lost a Candidate, I heard—words, I’m not certain who it was. I was headed back when Delilah whisked me off to tend to me.”
Those words were not reproachful, simply explanatory—he was not upset that he had been pulled away, she was not, in this case, a silly woman: She was doing what was necessary, what was needed. Otherwise he might have lost everything—his Candidacy, his friends, his entire life. Her words brought a nod of recognition and acknowledgement from him; if his back was a horror his hands were not far behind—they’d lifted and prized far too many burning objects off of the injured.
Even the scrap of metal he had touched had seared him and cauterized already wounded flesh. They would heal, but she was right—the skin would be sensitive and weak for sevendays, if not moons. As long as he could stand he would weather it all like a ship in a sea-storm. There was nothing else he could do. ”Thank you, Delilah. Without you—“ the words fell off into the hypothetical: Without her, everything. It was incomprehensible.
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Post by Cathaline on Aug 18, 2011 18:49:40 GMT -5
Of course Reylia would be strong in a crisis, Daymar thought, his head spinning slightly with the intense relief that she hadn't gone near the fire. Yet she'd still been brave enough to pitch in, unlike her older brother; she deserved acclaim, she deserved to be here. But he pushed such selfish, insecure thoughts away. Now was not the time. "Probably someone finally forced him to lie down and be tended," he said, a bit thickly. As Delilah was doing to Sebol, though of course Xiro'el did not need to be dragged away from the makeshift infirmary.
Delilah sighed softly. "One of the Candidates is dead - a woman," she said. "I didn't know her name, I'm sorry. I can find out for you when we get back." So many shocking deaths; the poor girl who had been chosen as special, and would not live to see a single Dalibor hatching. She made no apology for snagging him when she had - he had been on the verge of discovery, and it might have been the only opportunity she had to slip away. She would have been equally unrepentant if she'd been forced to pull him from the flames as he played the hero.
And not just played - he had been a hero today. She was especially careful with his hands, though she hadn't been cavalier with his back, either; if his back scarred, no one would know, because he never took off his shirt. But to lose full use of his hands would mean the end. He might not Impress, might not even be allowed to Stand; he would lose what he had left of his Craft. Knowing him as she did, Delilah made sure to bandage his hands quite heavily to curtail his ability to use and reinjure them. No doubt, she thought wryly, each day she'd find him with a much thinner layer, having tweaked the coverings to his liking; at least she could attempt to protect him from himself.
"Don't mention it," she said, kissing his cheek. He tasted like ashes.
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Post by Ruin on Aug 18, 2011 19:09:01 GMT -5
”Probably,” Sebol answered with little conviction. Or the man had consigned himself to the flames—but they would know: Tigreath would have betweened and they would know. Perhaps he was resting and Avsiran had sought out the company of one who was not in a slumber—the firelizards were still nervous, confused, and worried: He soothed them with a calming stream of fuzzy thoughts mostly born within him through the care and regard Delilah showed in tending to his wounds.
It was not a happy thing, to know a Candidate had died, but—selfishly—Sebolaren knew that those he loved were safe, even G’dan who he had helped pull out of the smoke-filled infirmary. That which he cared for was accounted. Brief moments of selfish thoughts would be common during a crisis such as this: It was hard to mourn for those you did not know while also rejoicing that you had not lost the ones you did. Weary soot-reddened eyes turned to Daymar and he offered the man an encouraging smile; aware of how bravely he was coping regardless of the death, the wounds, and even the firelizards that still clung pitifully to Sebol’s thighs.
”I am not sure how much I should say, please take these words as only consideration, but the metal I saw—that which was buried in the flesh of those in the Dining Hall—there was nothing in the Hall that could have done that save for…what I believe…was a flamethrower. I have no solid evidence yet: May not until the Healers pull metal from more bodies, but I plan on trying to find at least one identifying piece while working.” Pausing, to allow that to sink in, he continued softly. ”One of the Queenriders must have left it in the Hall when the shout of fire went up.”
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Post by Cathaline on Aug 18, 2011 19:21:35 GMT -5
If Agnith had lost her clutchmate, they would be among the first to know; she would be screaming, not simply echoing the cry of dragons lost. Dragons she'd never known, but it still cut her to the soul. Delilah ached for her dragonet, but it would be a long time before they were able to simply curl together and share that grief, share nothing but one another's companionship. There was too much to be done.
"He's all right," she murmured to Sebol. If there was anything exceptionally serious to worry about, Tigreath would've told Agnith, too. At least, Delilah thought so - because Agnith was a reliable way to find Sebol. Although maybe the disapproval Delilah felt for the cyan's rider would keep her from passing a message through her...who knew, at this point? But he'd be fine. He had to be.
Daymar offered a small smile back. He would take care of Sebol while the man recovered - remind him to eat, to sleep, to watch his hands lest he lose them. It was about all he was good for, really; he wasn't strong enough or good enough to work as hard as his friend, though he'd do what he was bid, of course. That was Candidacy.
That was strange; did flamethrowers explode like that? All at once Daymar's comfortable acceptance of the weapons turned to outright fear. Maybe it had been rigged to explode. The queenriders wouldn't be so incautious, why would they even have a flamethrower in the dining hall in the first place?
As paranoia set to its work in Daymar's mind, Delilah finished her work and stood, legs aching from sitting so long. "There. What clothes did you bring? Oh, these will work. I know it goes against all you know of hard work, but wear loose shirts, Sebol; anything tight across your back will cause you both pain and harm."
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Post by Ruin on Aug 18, 2011 19:48:45 GMT -5
Offering only a return smile to Delilah’s comfort, and watching Daymar cautiously as he accepted the information and processed it internally, Sebol was all too happy to stand—or would have been if he could manage on his own: Luckily both Delilah and Daymar were willing to help him by pulling on his upper arms. ”That’ll get obnoxious fast, not being able to sit or move properly.
I will, however, follow your instructions, Delilah. Loose shirts—care for my hands, watch for signs of infection.” Everything. He would not miss his chance to Stand now, not when there were still at least four moons until that time—he would be ready. Once dressed, the firelizards had creeled unhappily at his movement, and they had tried unsuccessfully to work their way to his shoulder—it took a firm mental touch to make them aware of the fact that they could no longer crawl up his back, and most likely would need to avoid his shoulders for a few weeks.
Unhappily they clung to the front of his tunic with wingclaws, talons, and even small nips of tunic. ”Thank you for the fresh clothing, Daymar.” It would probably not be fresh for long, but they had work to do now—all of them did.
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